heres an update for those who care i guess.

i found an archive of my website that is fairly up to date to what it was, and i am considering adding it back but i dont know if i want to maintain this project anymore. this place brought out a weird perspective of my personal life where i kinda just lied about how i felt to make myself feel better. i never ever focused on anything else when shit got worse, so everything else never updated. to an extent i am scared ill just do that again, not everyone cares about me enough to read my journal every time i update it. if anything it should stay personal instead of public and i should just focus on everything else. i dunno what to do going forward as well. even if i add it back what would i do? theres no art to post, theres no need to post my plush collection. maybe the site can rot away while i dont update it. let me know if i should put it back, cause feedback is important and i cant decide for myself.

other than that, i would love to vent so bad but ill refrain this time and end this update here. love yall